Social Anxiety.

Hey there. Today I just wanted to talk about social anxiety and how it effects me. Social anxiety is a discomfort or a fear when a person is in social interactions that involve a concern about being judged or evaluated by their peers. This for me has cause a lot of stress and disconnection from many others. This anxiety can be caused by a number of things. For me it was caused by bullying and having no one to turn too for help to make it easier. Since I had no one to turn to, the things others said really got to me and I started to believe everything anyone said. Grades started to slip since I was more worried about people looking at me during tests or to focused thinking about what's going to happen the next day at school rather than doing homework. During class if we had to read aloud or answer questions I would get so nervous and just start shaking cause I didn't want any attention on myself. In high school almost every year I was late about 140 times, between an hour-three hours at most. I would wake up in the morning, get ready, and if my hair didn't look good enough I would start breaking down in my bathroom and would not go outside till it looked to what I thought others thought "perfect." On the days I would just go in, I would make it about 10 minutes through the first period, than go into the bathroom for about 20 and just sit in the stall to hide. Things have slowly been getting better though. Through support from friends and random people complementing me over time. But it's still there and is still something that controls my life. If anyone else is ever feeling alone, with no one to turn to I'm here for you. I would hate to see others fall into this like I have.